I Just Don’t Have A Lot of Energy
I know people and relationships require it. I isolate to not only save myself, but protect others feelings. An unanswered text, or a disinterested conversation could send the wrong message. I’m not mad or selfish, quite the opposite. I just don’t have a lot of energy for this. Or much…
10 Signs of an Emotionally Abusive Relationship
Abuse draped in the lie that love is what you’re experiencing — Disclaimer: I am not a licensed professional, but I have been in an emotional abusive relationship. While every abusive relationship is different, I think there is a very pointed pattern of behavior from abusers. Please comment more that you have noticed in your own life. It could save someone. Please…
Cancel Culture Is Crushing Humanity (and it’s Counterproductive)
It’s not creating better humans. — Cancel culture is doing the opposite of what people think it is doing. People think it’s creating better humans. Because in the same way your siblings called you out growing up, now the world can take a shot at you. Poof, better humans. Except it isn’t creating better humans, it’s…
The Subconscious is Wild, huh.
No one tells you how to not feel like a burden to the good energy people. — No one tells you how to not feel like a burden to the good energy people. The subconscious is wild, huh. You feel like you’re sure to ruin them, not good enough yet. So you stay among the broken and bruised. The ones who lash out like a choreographed dance. Because it feels familiar, and this pain, it feels better than the other.
Rose Colored Beauties
I don’t just have empathy for the rose colored beauties, I’ve been one. — I don’t just have empathy for the rose colored beauties, I’ve been one. I would pair my glasses with the finest liquor, the best face. I mistook the security of a protective boyfriend, as safety. I would tempt, press buttons to prove love. Blame meant I was seen. I’ve become so numb to kindness, I mistake it for motive. So loneliness is now the security I always wanted.
No one talks about the unbearable neutral. — nobody ever talks about the energy it takes to be happy to choose happiness to find it my baseline has always been neutral it’s what has always kept me safe too sad swells my sinuses and causes physical pain too happy is risky and feels too unfamiliar to get comfortable with for long no one ever talks about the unbearable neutral and no one can see it either because to the outside world, you look okay and okay makes everyone else around you the most comfortable
Am I an Introvert or Just Emotionally Exhausted?
I think I connected being quiet with peace. — I grew up in an emotionally reactive family dynamic. I didn’t learn how to process emotions well, so I went inward at a young age. It took me a solid 24 years on this planet to recognize how damaging that ended up being for me as a person. I think…